Therapy revisited.....

So my previous post mentioned a life long friendship gone sour. Well I have just about picked up the pieces and with the help of PL I have accepted the end of what I once held so dear. She was a friend with whom I learned to ice skate, a friend with whom I had many sleep overs. As little girls we always talked about how things will be when we grow up and have our own families. Despite me moving to the US we kept in touch and every summer spent time together when I would fly back to Poland. I loved her and trusted her like a sister. I cried with her when her dad passed away, she cried with me when I lost my mom just a few years later. The reality strikes full in the face. It still hurts- but not as much as it did when I read that "epic" email. I can move on. I will move on. Close that chapter in my life for good. All I know and hope is that 'he' wll carry me through.

I'm alive but I feel like I have died.

All that is left is to accept that it is over. A life long childhood friendship. She sent me an email today. An email that crumbled my soul. Hurt so deep. It took my breath away. But I will bring beauty from this pain and walk out a stronger person.
Today I will cry my last. Perhaps I will forgive. I should. But I am not strong enough
yet.

Happenings

Tomorrow we are going to collect my Christmas present. Yeah kind of way after Christmas already. But see my husband is so awesome he bought me a house. We have the closing tomorrow. A closing on my Christmas house. Not just any house. It is a house that is directly behind the one we live in now. And guess what will happen in honor of my birthday.....this very house will be torn down so we can have a bigger yard. Yay for city living! :)

Peek-a -Moo!

Here I blog again.

We took O to the Children's Museum - Water play was a hit. Good deal I had the sense to pack extra clothes just in case. Despite the fabulous rain coat. O was soaked from head to toe. :)

Everybody is doing it

Seems like having a blog is the thing to do these days.
So to ring in the New Year I have decided to resurrect mine.
Let's see how long I can keep this up this time. :)